In about January, things began turning around for me. I decided that I would no longer event. The anger about that loss was still there, so I decided to turn my focus on jumpers. It was something that I have never done with Scooby and it has also been my weaker area in eventing, so I felt it could be beneficial all the way around. My training would stay the same with a large emphasis on classical dressage, I would just jump a tad more and school lead changes more often. I think the decision to put my focus somewhere else was the best thing I could do. Surprisingly enough, as soon as I began doing jumpers, I also started to miss eventing some. With Phoenix and I in a much better place, I last minute decided to enter Difficult Run Horse Trials for June 7-9th (my very favorite Horse Trial). Although I still had a few "moments" over the weekend, everything went great and it was a blast! Phoenix scored a 36 in Dressage. I was not thrilled about it (I was really hoping for a low 30), but he was somewhat distracted. I was ok with it though. He had one rail in Show Jumping (the last fence...Boo!) I was most likely already relishing in my clear round before it actually happened! Cross country was awesme! Despite the slippery footing from all of the rain sustained and not using large enough studs, he still jumped around to a double clear. In Chris's words "He was a beaaaast!!" He finished in 5th place and earned his first USEA points!! What a different place we are getting into. I love Phoenix now and truly appreciate him for him. I no longer compare him to Scooby. I think about my Lamborghini all of the time and do not feel I will ever truly come to terms with what happened, but I do know that I am strong enough to perservere. Tragedy and grief crushed my world for a long time, but with the amazing support of friends, family, and a special bay horse named Phoenix, things are heading in a good direction again... I am thrilled to be getting my life back!!
The rusty Geo Metro has transformed into a beautiful Ferrari =)
|Penn National, January 2012|
|Difficult Run Horse Trials, June 2013|
Here are P's two Cross Country clips from this past weekend..
I have so many more updates to give, but since it has been so long, it will just take time!!!